You know it was only a matter of time. I love breedables in Second Life, so when these KittyCatS came out, I really, honestly, tried to resist them. As more and more bloggers showed photos of their kitties they were breeding, I wanted them even more. A couple days ago, I took myself to the KittyCatS store, and purchased a pair of kittens.

I really enjoy building. I like to get out a piece of paper, draw out a basic floor plan, label where windows, arches and doors will go, and then watch it come to life as I build it with prims. I love the small accomplishments that I do while building - the feeling of finishing the building, then the texturing, then the overall good feeling when I'm looking at the boxed up package. It's fantastic. That's probably why I'm building so much lately.

I've been spending a little more time in SL! I had kind of a realization once I brought myself back to SL - I am much too skinny. Really, did I really exist almost 4 years looking like this? So, I made the decision to put a little weight on. I had a little advice from a few people on Plurk, which really helped. I'm always nervous to edit my shape, I'm really bad with proportions (that's also probably why I could never draw very well).

I actually started created something again! No, not poses, but a prefab! Jeffry and I moved out of our parcel on Bluebonnet, we aren't in SL together much to really justify such a large chunk of land anymore... So, we got a smaller piece of land, and we needed a new house.


I couldn't find a prefab I really liked - so I made my own. I've been working on it on and off for the past couple weeks, and I finally finished it. I wasn't really intending to put it up for sale, but I was pleased with how it came out, so I thought I would share it. It's called "The Halona", and if you want to check it out, you can find it on the marketplace here. (By the way, it's only $40L!)

Also, in other news, I took the time last weekend to actually put my [ImpEle] poses on the marketplace. Because I don't have an in-world store anymore for people to try out the poses, they are super cheap! Only about $15L per pose pack. And yes, the free animation overrides are back.

But other than that, I have been switching back and forth between World of Warcraft and Second Life. Sometimes I can't decide which of the two I want to do, so I find myself logged into both at once, flipping back and forth. I'm skilled like that. Yep.

Hi there! My name is Sai, and this is (was?) my blog. I am still around, yes. In the past couple months, I've dealt with many things that has kept me away. I've had a death in the family a couple months ago, and he was very important to me. But he had major health problems, so his passing was coming closer, and we knew it. A couple weeks after he passed, we had to move from one apartment to smaller place. Then another family member got ill and was hospitalized. Now, I'm finding myself with health issues that need to be corrected ASAP. So, it's been crazy.

So much has happened since my last post. First, Jeffry and I celebrated our one year together. Can you believe its already been one year since we got engaged in SL? Not me. Its been a whirlwind of adventure, filled with happy, marriage, a daughter, and RL meetings.

On our anniversary, we decided to go for another baby, with a few things different this time. The main one being, a longer pregnancy. The standard 2 month SL pregnancy time was just way to short, by the time I edited a cute piece of clothing for my shape, it was time to change to another shape. Jeffry and I couldn't decide how long to do the pregnancy for, so we just decided to go for the whole 9 months. Yep. I'll be SL pregnant for 9 full months. Crazy, right? So, we bought a tummy talker (for at home, I refuse to wear it out in public), and since its been a month already, I put on my first pregnancy shape.

Second thing that happened - I went to his home town for a full week to be with him. I've been really excited to see his town, where he lived, and spend time with him. I had such a wonderful time with him. I loved every second of it, from dinner at Taco Johns, seeing fireflies, being eaten alive by fish and mosquitoes, to just cuddling in bed together. It was an amazing time. I will do a brief blog post about it here once I am able to talk about it without crying (I mean, I just got home on Tuesday, so I'm still very emotional about leaving). I'm also planning a much bigger post on my RL blog filled with tons of photos as well. If anyone is interested in reading it, I am considering posting a link.

I've been trying to play with photos a bit more again and working on the Dodge/Burn tools a bit. I think they look better than what I started with a couple months ago, but obviously, I still need tons of work and practice to go.

BBBC2010 topic 3: Thoughts on relationships in SL. With my past partners, I was content with the only SL thing. One partner had a busy life already, another partner didn't even want want to tell me any information about his RL self at all. But that was okay. SL was my paradise, and my escape from my real world. There was more to SL than talking about RL, right? I mean, you have wonderful sims to explore and talk about, so much shopping to do, and other avatars to talk about! I've heard of Second Life residents meeting each other and marrying before. Yes, I was slightly envious. But hey, good for them - that kind of happiness and fluffy stuff just doesn't happen to me, and I'm used to it. At least, thats what I thought at the time.

Jeffry, when I met him in SL, I swore our relationship was going to be just the same. SL only, living across the United States without ever meeting, or even talking via phone. When he brought it up, I was a little scared to commit to a RL meeting, because I am really insecure about my RL self. But our meeting came, was wonderful, made me totally happy, and then it went. (Yes, I know I've blogged about it many, many times)

After the meeting, its been about 2 months now, and while we don't get in SL together much anymore, we still talk all the time via GTalk, Skype, phone and texting. We are more like a long distance RL couple, than a SL couple now. Occasionally, we will plan a movie night, where we'd go rent a movie in SL and cuddle while we watch it, which sometimes feels incredibly real. Its a strange feeling, seeing my avatar curled up to the avatar of my long distance fiance - I can imagine his touch, almost as if he's really with me. Weird, really. I thought I understood it before the meeting, but once we actually met, the feeling has been magnified. As if its not difficult enough to explain, imagine trying to explain it to someone who isn't into SL at all.

Sometimes, it feels like its made our relationship worse, because... when we cuddle in SL, I am reminded how much I miss him. Even with the imaginary feeling, it still doesn't fully replace the real thing. But at the same time, its made things better, because I know he is a real person (in a virtual world, its difficult to remember this sometimes), he's committed to me in both worlds, and SL has become a compliment to our relationship, and not what we are based on.

What was the topic again? Oh, right. Relationships. Well, that about sums every bit of my thoughts on SL/RL relationships, right?

Today's BBBC2010 topic was pretty simple. List 3 things that make SL positive for me. But still, for some reason, I had to think about it. I mean, my number one was a given. But the other 2? I was not sure. After thinking about it though, I came up with my three things.

1. Jeffry. Obviously. He's the one that's most positive in SL to me, and I always look forward to when we log in together, whether it be to watch a silly movie, or just curl up in bed and do some cuddling. Our daughter, Jasmine falls under number one as well. Both marrying Jeffry, and the birth of our baby girl were such positive experiences in my Second Life existence, I never even imagined I'd be doing either one. And never, ever, in either life, did I imagine I'd have met my SL husband in RL, AND become his real life fiancee.

2. My Blog. Without it, I don't know where I'd be. It has been my little log of adventures, and for a long time, it kept me moving in SL. I have no doubt that I would have left without my precious blog. In a time when I was feeling my lowest, I kept posting, looking forward to my next blog post, and it became something that made me happy. I remember way back when I first started it, I wanted to just log my SL explorations for future use, but then it became so much more to me. It's now a log of my adventures, heartbreak, and happiness. As silly as it is, I love sharing bits of my SL experiences with the blog (and/or blog readers), and its more of my diary now, as it's evolved and grown up with me through these 3 years.

3. My Home. My home is such a positive place for me, and it makes me happy in ways that I can't even explain. It's wonderful to come home to a place that I know I can be alone, to cuddle my husband in privacy, and sort inventory in peace. It's soothing to know that when I log back in the next day, I won't get bombarded with people asking me : "want sex? i have hotel" at an infohub when I have no home to log out at (and yes, I have been asked that, in the past). It's my little place of quiet, in a SL world that is so loud and unpredictable. Also, who doesn't love to come home to a place that is always tidy and filled with beautiful things? And, where in the world would I put a piano in my RL home? :)

Alicia Chenaux is doing the Big Bad Blogger Challenge again this year, and you know I had to participate. I love the BBBC, so it should be fun to blog every day this week. I even decided I would blog every day for one week on my fashion-y blog too. Maybe I'll get to clear out some outfit photos I've been hoarding.

Last week was my 3rd rezday.